In one journal entry, you wrote that one day your handwritten letters suddenly felt like they belonged to someone else. Do you see authorship as something fixed, or as something more fluid and shifting?I don’t see authorship as something fixed or essential. Sometimes what I make feels like it represents me, and other times it doesn’t. I can write something or design a piece and shortly after feel that it has nothing to do with me. I’ve learned to accept that distance as part of the process. It doesn’t bother me.
What I wrote in the journal was literal. One day I looked at my own handwriting and didn’t recognize it. Not just because of how it looked, but because of the feeling of facing something that had come from me but no longer felt close. That happens to me often. I don’t see it as a loss of identity, but more as a temporary disconnection between what I make and who I am at that moment. Over time, I understood that I don’t need to see myself in everything I produce. Sometimes a piece responds more to the context, to the energy of the day, or even to something I haven’t fully understood yet. For me, authorship is an unstable practice. It asserts itself, it fades, it returns. And in that movement, there’s something meaningful too.
What feelings or realizations have you been holding in your mind lately?Lately I’ve been feeling a deep sense of melancholy. I imagine the season has something to do with it
At the same time, having finished my first publication and finding myself right at the moment of its release puts me in a strange position I’m not sure I enjoy. I still don’t fully understand what it is that makes me uncomfortable. Maybe it’s the idea of having to say that something is finished. And if this “dream journal” is truly finished, then… Do I have to accept it exactly as it is? Maybe I do… but what if I suddenly decide I don’t want to look at it anymore? I can’t just delete it by pressing a button.
Is there something you’d like to explore in your future work?I think I want to make a doll or maybe a children’s book? I’m not entirely sure. There are a lot of things moving around in my head right now.